So what when already in the holiday? As normal bored and bored like hell. Is 1.26am now. Still not yet sleep cause didn't feel sleepy. Chatting with my college friend and also my old friend. If now sleep, I scare can't wake up at 5am. Why wake up so early? Because I promise with my friend that having breakfast tomorrow morning. What a silly idea. But nvm la, friend happy enough lor.. Tomorrow will be taking death note but MT help me to cod. Call him help me cod and he at there ngi ngi ngem ngem as a grandpa only..
Back to yesterday story, I went out with college first. It a FIRST time i hanging out with them. First I thought will be hanging out with them till they go for a movie, but when inside the green box, i totally K.O.. Why? Because of the F.I.R and also the sharp treble shouting sound inside the room.! Huh.. What a scary thing. I use to listen song very loud inside a car and I feel nothing, but when inside the green box, i totally knock out. Why? I also dunno why. My parent asking me that I on so loud volume inside my car and I won't feel dizzy or headache? And i always reply them "NO". Whenever i turning into junction of my house, they sure know I coming back. Why? Because of the bass from my woofer. None of my neighbour have done so. My gf more funny. Usually I will message her when i arrive outside of her house but now no need. When I taking corner to her house, she will know I coming. Because of the bass sound again. Izit so powerful? Wait till i put in a pair of 12". I told my gf that i gonna to change my car muffler and she said, "If you wan change, pls change it to the silent 1, dun change like my iswara muffler with very noisy sound but no energy at all!". ANd i promise her, I will not change my muffler if I don't have a good budget for a nice silent muffler. Every time when i send her home, once she go down from my car, He will give me a kiss and Remind me "Drive slowly and safely". And i know you care me dear.. But you know my temper and attitude well de la.. You always said that I'm a person that have a very bad temper and only you can control my temper. And that true. When i have any temper, once you see your charming smile, i will be feel very relaxing. That is the power of your love that won't go off in my heart. What I had first is always u get the first opportunities. It very late now and i had already call u to sleep and i know now u having a wonderful dream. God really very fair to me because giving me a such a good wonderful wife. If not her, I don't think I was here right now. Because of her, I changed myself pass 4 years. Because of you, I only know how worth is a life is. Because of you, I only know how powerful love is. Because of you, I avoid in the bad society. She had been told my sister that she worry me everyday pass 4 year. Everyday sure have something happen on me. And I still remember her worry look when I was been whacking those ppl at masjid jamek and I had promise you many thing to continue my life peacefully. I don't know why i will be talking this here, but I remind back last time as people call Evan and not now de Wilson. And I still remember that, I don't know what SCARE is. But now, I really know what is scare is. Thank for care me and guide me for so many year. And is last time I clever enough, I think I won't step on this way. I can't blame myself on this because when I was young, I really very stressful. Always wan to be this and that, at last i regret. Why parent give me money to study in secondary school I don't wan to appreciate it and I need to waste 1 more year! I really very regret! All because of me who don't know how to think. Make you all worry when i was young. I don't wish to think my past because it will be make me hurt deeply. Why god can't make the ppl without any pressure and stress? But don't care what matter will happen, I really need to thank my dear a lot. Because of you, I only managed to find myself and continue my life in peacefully. Thank for your care and guide in my life. I hope you will reading this and I will do what i promise you pass 4 years. What I do, I will think of you, because I Love You. Maybe in this pass 4 years you only see me cry when my best friend was pass away pass 4 years. And I tell you now, My tear was dropping out from my eye now when i think back my pass and how my friend die. I miss him alot. And you teach me that, what is pass already pass, it already a history. We must look forward and cheerful always. And yes, i can do it. But i can't forget my pass. Dear, Thank you alot. I will love you forever. This is a reason why I don't tell my friend about my real backgroud. Because I trying to forget my pass as possible! I hope you all done mind about this.